My Process
Therianthropy is confusing. I'm not the first person to say this and I certainly won't be the last one. I've been doing heavy & obsessive introspection for years now. This hasn't been a good way to go about it. I'm content being a coyote but self-doubt was installed at some point. Like, I know I am a coyote. The majority of my behaviors that I don't feel are human match up and no other canid or animal feels as correct as this does.
I guess, for myself, my issue is I have no memory of much of the time prior to the therian community. Can't tell if the chicken came first or the egg. It is an unconscious thing that has stood the test of time. Even times of actively ignoring it. As a matter of fact, I find it is more noticeable when I am not actively thinking or trying to make myself feel more coyote. Attempts at the latter usually fail. I used this as an introspective tool a few months back. My method consisted of:
- Not putting a label to my experiences
- Not forcing myself to feel anything
- Not looking at or watching videos of coyote
- Not reading about coyote behavior
- Not really seeking out info about any animal at all
Taking a label off can be helpful and encourage an unbiased look at what is really happening under it all. It's all coyote for me. That's what I found.
Aside from coyote stuff, I experience feline shifts as well. When I was trying my method out, feline shifts were not very present. I still don't fully know why I experience feline shifts. These tend to come out with anger and an external target more often than not. For that reason, I have my doubts about these being caused by a true theriotype. I need to stop overthinking it.
I guess, for myself, my issue is I have no memory of much of the time prior to the therian community. Can't tell if the chicken came first or the egg. It is an unconscious thing that has stood the test of time. Even times of actively ignoring it. As a matter of fact, I find it is more noticeable when I am not actively thinking or trying to make myself feel more coyote. Attempts at the latter usually fail. I used this as an introspective tool a few months back. My method consisted of:
- Not putting a label to my experiences
- Not forcing myself to feel anything
- Not looking at or watching videos of coyote
- Not reading about coyote behavior
- Not really seeking out info about any animal at all
Taking a label off can be helpful and encourage an unbiased look at what is really happening under it all. It's all coyote for me. That's what I found.
Aside from coyote stuff, I experience feline shifts as well. When I was trying my method out, feline shifts were not very present. I still don't fully know why I experience feline shifts. These tend to come out with anger and an external target more often than not. For that reason, I have my doubts about these being caused by a true theriotype. I need to stop overthinking it.