Coyote Desires
I decided to ask myself what I want as a coyote. I decided to do this so that I could introspect a bit. One of my thoughts involved the fact that I would be seeing my pups getting older and joining in around this time of year. Being human has its perks but coyote desires are pretty base. Base and sometimes a bit painful to think about on a conscious level. This is one of those painful coyote things.
It feels a lot like I've been denied a lot of things by being human. This question has helped with my constant skepticism of myself to the point of gaslighting. If I wasn't a coyote on some core level, why would such a thing upset me? I don't think I'd be as upset as I am now if I wasn't a coyote. This is not unlike how I feel when I think of how different my life would be if I was born a cis man instead of being trans. The pain is similar, if not exact, and very real.
It feels a lot like I've been denied a lot of things by being human. This question has helped with my constant skepticism of myself to the point of gaslighting. If I wasn't a coyote on some core level, why would such a thing upset me? I don't think I'd be as upset as I am now if I wasn't a coyote. This is not unlike how I feel when I think of how different my life would be if I was born a cis man instead of being trans. The pain is similar, if not exact, and very real.